Still waiting and Vlog #4.

Hello everyone. So tomorrow is the last day to find out about my audition results. I've been waiting for over 4 weeks and its been torture. My best friend Kendra got character performer so ever since she found out I've been constantly on edge. Every time my email bings on my phone, my heart skips a beat. At this point I just need to know either way. And I would hate to be rejected on my last day.
As I've said before, I want this more than anything but I can't control what happens now.

So this is a bit delayed but here is our Vlog #4!

Is it possible to wish too hard?

So yesterday my best friend Kendra was accepted into being a Character Performer. I know I should be happier for her, but I'm not. I just want the same to happen to me. Yes its a dream to work for Disney, but its even a bigger dream to perform.
I've been praying, and crying non stop. Just begging to this higher power to let me get this.
But has my luck run out? I feel like up to this point everything has gone so smoothly. The interview, the acceptance, the audition, its all been going so well. Is this where everything stops?
Maybe I'm just being pessimistic and over thinking things but it worries me. I know if I go down to Disney in the fall and I won't be a performer, I'll be terribly upset every day. Seeing Kendra go off to train and everything, it will break my heart. I still love her dearly but this just...it hurts. It really hurts.
So as of now, no news from Disney. But, we shall see what happens. I will write about it either way.
But until then, your support and prayers mean the world.